Heart of a Disciple: The Twelve
Part Seven
One definition of intimacy is to ‘fully know someone and be fully known by them’; that’s what we observe in the apostle John. Volumes have been written about him, so let’s simply look at his heart … intimately. He wrote the last gospel, three letters to the churches, and recorded his visions in the Book of Revelation, but what inspired him? What did Jesus see choosing him to be the third part of His Elite Three? John understood intimacy.
His perspective was always heavenly, the upper story understanding of his Lord, and his writings help us to gain that deeper understanding. He didn’t record any parables, but with many metaphors and allegories showed the love and care Jesus has for us. For example, only John recorded the Seven ‘I AM’ declarations, “I am the bread of life, light of the world, the gate, good shepherd, resurrection, the only way, truth, and life,” which challenges us to know Jesus more intimately: “How are You, Jesus, all those things to me?” The heart of a disciple seeks to know Him more fully, spending time while being brutally honest with Him: be fully known.
There’s no one who better describes the spiritual side of Jesus better than John, the other ‘son of thunder’. He watched and listened as Jesus taught parables, but his understanding wasn’t the lower story, it was the upper, heavenly perspective. His writings cause us to be more reflective, even mystical, as we read about Jesus’ conversations with people, the love He showed, and the value of the Holy Spirit to help us live life in victory.
There was a strong element of trust in John, another clue to the heart of a disciple, since Jesus entrusted His own mother to him as He hung on that cross. Being His BFF, John didn’t need to draw attention to himself, he didn’t record his own name, but simply wrote several times, “The disciple that Jesus loved.” Jesus can trust someone who doesn’t need to draw attention to themselves, but focuses attention on Him.
He became the last living apostle, the senior pastor, the only one who wasn’t martyred, and experienced a series of visions during a time of lonely exile. Only someone with spiritual depth, an upper story type person, would be trusted with the heart of God as we read the Book of Revelation. From beginning to end it’s all about God saving His people and bringing them back to the Garden where we’ll enjoy eternity with Him in the New Kingdom of God. The heart of a disciple is keenly aware of the return of Christ and eagerly anticipating that one event every day.
Studying John’s heart through Scripture is an invitation to go deeper into Jesus’ identity, to develop intimacy as you get to know Him better and He knows you. That’s the heart He’s looking for, one He can trust, and who doesn’t simply look at outward circumstances (lower stories), but looks through eyes of faith (upper stories).
